Someone once told me that whatever happened in the pass can't be changed, even though it haunts you in the present. You have one of two choices to make when your past haunts you: 1. Write a book about all the bad things that happened to you and express your thoughts deeply, say whatever you want to say and if you don't, you either sleep well or not at all.
2. Use what happened to you in the past as an advantage, you will feel a lot better and that emptiness that you once felt would disappear like vapors in the air.
And depite all that happen to you, your are not alone, so stop feeling as if you the only one that feels pain, there are othesr who are feeling far more pain than you can ever imagine, all you have to do is take advantage of oppurtunities and God will guide you through it all. If he brought you to it, he can bring you through it.